I want this for him. "No matter what our relationship ends up, I want to have us be great friends who are there for each other and upon whom we can depend. I have such a strong protective feeling for him/you. I mean, I love you to the end, but I will be whomever you need. I want to live, so I can take care of you. It is all I need. I will never have you out of my mind. You are eternally loved. By me."

I wish he would look at my x-rays and ultrasound(s) so he could have input as to if they could be lipedema lumps.

My phone message to Dr. L (re contempt) was out of concern for the fact that I was worried for his safety because of all the forging of his signature I had noticed. It made me realize it was identity theft many times over and could have serious implications of harm for him. I knew it could result in my garnering a false contempt charge, but I had to take that risk to warn him to keep him safe. I would give my life to save his. He is much more valuable to the world than myself, plus he means that much to me. If that is something that deserves jail, then so be it, but the original R.O. was false. I proved it. Let your conscience guide you. I am a senior widow with breast cancer. Just finish me off. I have been so brutalized, I am basically dead already. Just take a gun and shoot me, five years of this had been slow, agonizing torture, even Amnesty international would be stunned by what I have endured. It could not be recognized as humane and now cancer. How is that for a kick in the crotch?

Please, you have been so kind to me and you have protected him, could you ask him to please put me in his protective care? He is the one I trust and love so very much and has been there for me, just as have you. This is just a very special need for his help and your Heavenly guidance. Bless you and thank you so very much.

I know you took care of both of us.

You are love.