My phone message to Dr. L (re contempt) was out of concern for the fact that I was worried for his safety because of all the forging of his signature I had noticed. It made me realize it was identity theft many times over and could have serious implications of harm for him. I knew it could result in my garnering a false contempt charge, but I had to take that risk to warn him to keep him safe. I would give my life to save his. He is much more valuable to the world than myself, plus he means that much to me. If that is something that deserves jail, then so be it, but the original R.O. was false. I proved it. Let your conscience guide you. I am a senior widow with breast cancer. Just finish me off. I have been so brutalized, I am basically dead already. Just take a gun and shoot me, five years of this had been slow, agonizing torture, even Amnesty international would be stunned by what I have endured. It could not be recognized as humane and now cancer. How is that for a kick in the crotch?

Please, you have been so kind to me and you have protected him, could you ask him to please put me in his protective care? He is the one I trust and love so very much and has been there for me, just as have you. This is just a very special need for his help and your Heavenly guidance. Bless you and thank you so very much.

I know you took care of both of us.

You are love.

Please watch over him and keep him safe and feeling loved. He is.

I love my time of praying to you for G's happiness, safety and health and to send him my love. It is a sweet time. I love it.

To "You":
You know that if you don't want to be my friend it is your choice that I must endure and would do so gracefully (or maybe a few tears in private) but you don't ever have to avoid me, because I hold you in such high esteem and I am gentle. I would always be an ear and a shoulder for you, no matter what. I will love you with my dying breath and the last beat of my heart, then I will join my guardian angel and look out for you from Heaven.

It has been such a long time since seeing, or speaking with him. I am always sad. I was surprised when I cried and cried last night. I felt as if I would never stop. Please help me get through this, but most of all, keep him safe. Please send him my love.