Please

 Please help me. I want to die.

Please help me understand what is going on. I am so sad I could die.

I am so worried. I want him to be safe and loved.

He kept me alive.....through you.

Please tell him I love him.

Please help me understand what I should do. I am so tired, I barely care, but I do hate missing him. It is what I DO care about. I miss his sweet face and warm eyes. I know I am not special, but I am drawn to taking care of him. The thought of it makes me so happy.

Please make a miracle happen and let me see him soon.

I would take care of him, no matter if he were contagious and I had no mask.  Life sucks without him.

"I'm aware that people I have loved and have died are in the spirit world looking after me."

~Princess Diana

I'm aware that people I have loved and have died and are in the spirit world looking after me.

Princess Diana

I'd only trust him.

I do not understand why a health crisis doesn't change things. It was most likely done to trip me up and hurt me somehow. Why else be so cruel? It sounds childish, like MP was behind it. You have the most disguisting people in your life. It must wear you down.Horrible people are a drain.

He deserves to have a free, lovely life of some fun and laughter and lots of love and respect. He is a beautiful human being who I love to the moon and back.

Apology accepted........or not

It isn't hard to be a thug, it isn't decent, classy, sophisticated, or intelligent. What is difficult is smiling and being gracious while one thing after the other, hardship hits, because of the things the thug set into motion. At least the thug realizes they are doing wrong because they cowardly hide behind other people who do their dirty work. The thug is not invisible and will be caught and every ugly  thing she was trying to avoid, will drop right into her lap. She thinks she is being a strong woman, but sadly that is not true, because without sycophants, she would have to get her own hands messy and she thinks she is too good for that. But she isn't. She is a criminal. She is the same as a burglar, a thief, conspirator, a drug dealer, a violent offender attacker.....a low class thug.

Yet, if she apologizes to me, I will not strike, legally.....back. I will have the forum to do so. I don't even like to cause bad people any pain. But, I will.

Not one moment of concern for anyone else suffering in this. Not one.

You are magical and lovely.

Please keep him safe , happy and feeling loved. Please tell him I love him. He knows, but it is nice to hear frequently. My love to you too. Please bless me and bless him. He is a beautiful, loving human being. You are our lovely angel we both love.

I want this for him. "No matter what our relationship ends up, I want to have us be great friends who are there for each other and upon whom we can depend. I have such a strong protective feeling for him/you. I mean, I love you to the end, but I will be whomever you need. I want to live, so I can take care of you. It is all I need. I will never have you out of my mind. You are eternally loved. By me."

I wish he would look at my x-rays and ultrasound(s) so he could have input as to if they could be lipedema lumps.

My phone message to Dr. L (re contempt) was out of concern for the fact that I was worried for his safety because of all the forging of his signature I had noticed. It made me realize it was identity theft many times over and could have serious implications of harm for him. I knew it could result in my garnering a false contempt charge, but I had to take that risk to warn him to keep him safe. I would give my life to save his. He is much more valuable to the world than myself, plus he means that much to me. If that is something that deserves jail, then so be it, but the original R.O. was false. I proved it. Let your conscience guide you. I am a senior widow with breast cancer. Just finish me off. I have been so brutalized, I am basically dead already. Just take a gun and shoot me, five years of this had been slow, agonizing torture, even Amnesty international would be stunned by what I have endured. It could not be recognized as humane and now cancer. How is that for a kick in the crotch?

Please, you have been so kind to me and you have protected him, could you ask him to please put me in his protective care? He is the one I trust and love so very much and has been there for me, just as have you. This is just a very special need for his help and your Heavenly guidance. Bless you and thank you so very much.

I know you took care of both of us.

You are love.